Depressed

I think its easy to feel depressed. I think it would strange if I was not depressed by what is happening. My dad always use to say that when this illness made him feel that way. I think I am getting worse despite all my efforts.. I have been on this antifungal for 11 days and they said I would feel like I was having a relapse but I'd come out of it. So far it is only starting to get hard to walk. Symptoms feel very exacerbated. My feet feel disconnected to the floor, but strangely they feel less numb and move quicker, albeit less coordinated. The scariest part of all of this is that I do not know what is happening to my body. I got out a cane because it is hard to walk. I bought that cane a long time ago as a joke but apparently the joke is on me now. I do not know what tomorrow will bring. I may be using a cane from now on. I am becoming my father in more than just general affect. I follow in his diseased foot steps. This is my cross to bear. Hopefully, not forever.